Friday, July 31, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 49

I woke up this morning and started my day with nachos & leftovers.

- chips & cheese
- chow mien 
- 2 cupcakes
- nations cheeseburger 
- fries
- mini beefy ques
- cheesy gordita crunch from Taco Bell

Thursday, July 30, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 48

It's my Friday !!! I really want to go jogging this weekend but I don't. I think I'm stuck in a rut. 

- cream puff 
- Reese's cups
- 10 chicken nuggets
- small fries 
- nibbles of ribs
- taro milk tea 

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 47

It's hump day! So far I'm only working one day this week so I feel really rested. 

- crappy cheesesteak sandwich
- Reese's cups king size
- fruit punch
- cheesepuffs 
- spicy beef ramen
- large boba iced tea 

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 46

Enjoying my day off!  The only downside, it's super hot and the heat makes me feel fat. 

- peanut butter & honey sandwich 
- chicken curry
- peanuts
- taro milk tea w/ boba
- chips & cheese
- candy bar

Monday, July 27, 2015

Ding Dong The Witch Is Dead

My life has changed again.

This past month I ended a relationship with somebody who I really admired, one of my comedy idols.

I can't do unhealthy friendships anymore. That's what I get for looking up to a chronic substance abuser.  For me, my whole life has been about facing my personal short comings and dealing with those issues head on, so I've finally realized that looking up to a basehead has negated my own principles.  I can't do it anymore.

For me, I bring trust, faith, loyalty, honesty, laughter and some other great qualities to a friendship. 

I can't do lies, selfishness, self-centeredness, and that other self serving bullshit. 

I guess that's why I'm so guarded and rarely let anyone in anymore.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not jaded by failed friendships and I still very much believe in the goodness of people, I just finally stopped taking everything for face value.  

Really, the only way to get to know somebody is by spending time with them, which is why I think so many marriages don't work out, because like friendships, you really don't know someone until you've seen their good side and bad side.

I think idols are important because they remind us of the people we want to be & as it turns out, I was looking up to the wrong person the whole time, so now it's time for me to be the person I've always looked up to and be my own hero, minus all the bullshit.


90 Day Diet - Day 45

Today is hot as fuck. I'm still feeling full from last night. 

- muffin
- Oreo cookie bites (which by the way, is turning my shit black)
- spicy ramen w/ beef
- large Thai tea w/ boba

Sunday, July 26, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 44

Wow, what a hellish week at work, I'm so glad I have the next couple of days off. 

- cheeseburger & fries
- corn dog
- mini Oreo bites 

Oh girl, she went to the buffet today and she's even going to try to list all the food she ate.

90 Day Diet - Day 43

- chocolate balls
- half of cheeseburger 
- chili cheese fries
- chipotle steak burrito 
- guac & chips
- taro milk tea 

Friday, July 24, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 42

Today is pay day and I'm also getting myself out of debt today so I totally decided to eat like a pig.  I know some are you are asking yourselves, "how would that be different from any other day" ??? It wouldn't.  xoxoxo 

- creme brûlée 
- chocolate donut
- chipotle steak burrito 
- chips & guac 
- chicken curry 
- Thai iced tea

Thursday, July 23, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 41

- creme brûlée
- maple donut
- cup of chili w/ cheese & onions
- half grilled cheese w/ bacon
- chocolates 
- 2 scoop ice cream 
- half peanut butter & honey sandwich
- 4 small slices of pepperoni pizza

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 40

Today I just couldn't finish my Mickey Dee's cheeseburger, it tasted gooey! (Yuck)

- McChicken sandwich 
- McDouble 
- 3 large sweet tea's
- 3 bbq chicken sliders
- mac & cheese
- home made chips w/ dip
- peanut & honey sandwich 

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 39

I had a long work week and will going into another stretch tomorrow. Now that I work 9 hour days it's really hard to make time for exercise. Let me get my bills paid and then I'll look for something better in the East Bay side. 

- spicy ramen
- gyoza 
- Thai iced tea w/ boba
- chips
- 6 Macaroons 

And these too!!

Monday, July 20, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 38

Today is my day off & the only thing I want to do is relax.

We went to see Amy Schumer's, "Trainwreck" , and it was too long. I think, "Bridesmaid" , may have created a new genre of raunchy women's comedy that might be hard to live up to.  We also recently saw Melissa MaCarthy's, "Spy" , movie and that was a bad follow up too.

- peanut butter & honey sandwich 
- nachos 
- movie pizza 
- movie popcorn 
- big slush
- mini beefy ques from Taco Bell
- meximelt from Taco Bell
- nachos from Taco Bell
- homemade nachos
- 3 cookies

90 Day Diet - Day 37

Today was so hot & muggy, I just wanted to get thru today, I have the next 2 days off so I can relax.

- cream puff pastry w/ filling
- chocoalate truffles
- hot dog wrapped in bacon
- large french fries
- smoothie
- big mac

Saturday, July 18, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 36

Long day, can barely remember what I ate. 

- snack cake 
- snack bar 
- boudin chili 
- Chocolate eclair
- watermelon punch
- pumpkin curry 
- frozen tea w/ boba 

Friday, July 17, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 35

I'm starting to feel a little bit like Kirstie Alley, she's a famous celeb who was notorious for losing weight and gaining it back except I haven't lost shit.

- creme brûlée 
- chicken salad sandwich
- kit kat 
- 2 cookies
- 2 large sweet tea from Mickey Dee's
- baked potato with cheese, bacon, salt, onions 
- medium cup of beef curry
- large Thai iced tea w/ boba
- small slice of pizza 

I did a good shit today, it's been a couple days since I took a good one. I have to figure out a way to take a big shit without consuming so much sugar. 

Thursday, July 16, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 34

Today was my Amy Winehouse documentary movie day! 

- Reese's pieces 
- chick stick
- slice of pizza 
- medium popcorn (still have a lot left)
- large cherry slush 

Not Giving Up!!

I really do enjoy entertaining people and not to mention, I'm pretty good at it, so I'm going to continue to remain positive, keep my chin up and keep plucking away at being the mega-star that I was born to be because, "its my destiny to triumph magnificently on Jeopardy" ! (White Men Can't Jump)

The world is ready is for a big time FAGGOT comedian and that silly bitch is going to be me!!


90 Day Diet - Day 33

Started off the day with one of my favorites, creme brûlée!

- creme brûlée 
- Reese's cups
- footlong subway sandwich 
- 2 cookies
- large Thai ice tea
- pineapple curry over rice

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 32

I feel good today.

- peanut butter & honey sandwich
- spicy beef ramen 
- 2 large Thai iced tea w/ boba
- Popeyes chicken leg
- big bowl of butter nut ice cream.

I love this bitch!


After 3 years of battling respiratory problems, the swine flu, pneumonia, a sinus infection, depression, weight gain, losing my voice & being misdiagnosed as a diabetic and having high anxiety, I'm finally feeling better.

A couple years ago when this all started, I use to wake up in my sleep from shortness of breath and now finally, it stopped.  

The last ER doctor I saw put me on the asthma ventilator and prescribed me some presnidone to take down the swelling in my throat and that did the trick.

As I began to get sick, I would frequently lose my breath in my sleep, I kept thinking to myself that every time I stopped breathing in my sleep that it was going to be my last breath and I wasn't ready to die.

About 2 years ago, I caught the swine flu and I didn't know it. That swine flu snuck up me because I was just getting over a sinus infection.  The wheezing from the swine flu was unbearable.  My first swine flu symptoms occurred in L.A., I just got through visiting Wesley in Arizona and was coming back from Las Vegas, which is where I'm sure I picked it up from, the penny slots. When I got to L.A., the symptoms began to kick in so I went to grocery store at 4am in the morning to buy some over the counter congestion medicine, what I didn't know was that my symptoms were so far progressed that it caused that over the counter medicine to give me really bad heart palpitations. When I finally got home and made it to the ER, that's when they found fluid in my lungs. 

This was around the time when the doctors informed me that I was pre-diabetic, which was odd for me because diabetes doesn't run in my family and I've always been active.  I guess my immune system was so tired fighting the flu & pneumonia that it left my sugar levels out of whack.

When I got home from L.A. And went to the ER, I had a good cry & let out all the emotional pain I was going thru.

Present time, I knew I wasn't completely healed because I still had minor wheezing in my lungs so the docs gave me an inhaler.  This went on for quite some time, the small lingering noticeable wheez.  Then by chance, I got sick again last month and lost my voice.  Maybe that was a great thing because that's when I got those steroids to reduce the swelling in my throat, those pills helped reduce the leftover swelling in my lungs and I've been sleeping like a baby ever since.

I'm just glad it's over. Thie stress of the sickness caused me to grow a couple grey hairs, that and being 40 too.

Today I want to celebrate being a survivor and hanging in there.  I can't think of a better way to do it than with a bowl of my favorite spicy ramen & Thai boba tea.


Monday, July 13, 2015

Lovers & Losers

I really feel like, if I try to lose weight just to attract men that I will be a sell out of my virtues, my self worth & my self-respect.  This is also why I'll never pay for a gay hooker.

Call me old fashioned but I'm still a firm believer in love.

I resent the fact that I was raised in a generation where Gay men could only feel intimacy with other men in bath houses, bathrooms, the bushes, truck stops, adult arcades or any other seedy places of ill repute.  I did fall into that bath house trap back in the 90's when I needed that instant gratification.

Now that I'm 41, I'm just now discovering how AIDS Activist Larry Kramer uttered these same sentiments on being Gay and trying to find love in the 80's.  Larry said the reason why we live in the generation of AIDS is because theres no love.

Well I got news from everyone.  I've been carrying the torch for love my whole life and will keep carrying it for as long as I can.  I'm a firm believer in that magical chemistry that two people can have between each other, I just only wish that I could truly experience it the way everyone dreams about.  

A while ago when I waited tables in a restaurant, I did attract a nice Salvadorian man to me but he was too young.  I didn't want to ruin him so I stayed away.  When we went on a movie date, he wanted me to sit way in the back with him and I guess, was waiting for me to bust a move.

The next day after the movie when I saw him at work, he teased me by saying that I was upset with him because I didn't get any play from him that night.

I just remember turning to him and saying, "muthafucka, if I wanted play from you I would've gotten it from you already" .  I did see him again recently and he was still looking good.  

I really hope I get to meet somebody like that again but around my age.

I have another friend who believes that his friends are his lovers, thats a nice sentiment but I personally like to keep my friends as friends and my lovers as lovers. 

I did try to give my number to this cutie who worked at Fishermans Wharf but I haven't seen him around in a while, I think he changed jobs.  As you guys can see, I'm still trying. 

I really don't know tomorrow will bring, I just hope whoever he turns out to be, that he treats me good and has a big one. 


90 Day Diet - Day 31

This morning, still had a little bit of stress to deal with before I got it out of my system.

- 2 awful bites of Greek yogurt 
- chocolate/caramel bites
- 2 crab Rangoon orders
- teriyaki chicken w/ rice 
- peanut butter & honey sandwich
- leftover small thin crust pizza slice
- 1/2 of mexican torta 

Sunday, July 12, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 30

Today is my binge day. I promise to myself to really try & eat healthy for the next 60 days. 

- chipotle steak ques
- guacamole & chips
- chocolate zingers 
- snack cake
- kit kat
- Thai iced tea
- pep pizza slice

Saturday, July 11, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 29

I'm starting today off like a champ!

- mars bar 
- guacamole & chips
- small chicken tortilla soup 
- creme brûlée 
- hot dog
- giant chocolate chip cookie 
- share tea
- 6 slices of thin crust pizza

Friday, July 10, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 28

I'm 1/3 done with this diet and I'm pretty sure I've gained, I won't know for sure until I hit the scale later this week.

- Creme brûlée 
- fruit punch
- 6' tuna subway sandwich with bacon & extra cheese
- 2 subway cookies
- boba milk tea
- spicy ramen noodles 

Thursday, July 9, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 27

This morning I feel great! I officially learned yesterday that I don't have diabetes, so that means I can continue to move forward without the extra stress.  

- Reese's cups 
- Burger King crossaint 
- BK tater tots 
- yogurt from McDonald's 
- 2 chocolate chip cookies
- deep fried burrito 
- small ice cream
- corn 

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 26

Just trying to get through today.

- peanut butter sandwich
- mini beefy ques 
- meximelt 
- 2 Reese's cups
- small lunchable
- 2piece Popeyes chicken
- mashed potatoes 
- biscuit 
- butterfingers cups

90 Day Diet - Day 25

This evening I had a slight little scare so I took myself to the hospital, I feel much better, so because my health is fine, I'm going to splurge. 

- Safeway salad
- one slice of pizza 
- garlic fries
- fried chicken sandwich 

Monday, July 6, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 24

The left side of my stomach hurts today, it almost like it wants to cramp. Yesterday I did cramp up on the trolley. I guess I've been neglecting my body so much from physical exercise that it's starting to show.

On the positive side, my breathing has gotten much better. The medication I took when I lost my voice really helped my throat heal, I guess it was inflamed all this time. And I'm sleeping a lot better too! I love my rest!

- little Debbie snack cake
- small package of Oreos 
- Arizona Grape drink
- large sweet tea
- mini double cheeseburger 
- mini chicken sandwich
- Thai iced tea w/ boba 
- green chicken curry
- bag of chips

*took a good shit today

Sunday, July 5, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 23

I'm gonna have to go backwards because I can't remember what the fuck I ate today:

- half of a steak chipotle burrito 
- guac & chips 
- Reese's cups
- yogurt from McDonald's 
- medium lemonade 
- big orange hi cee drink
- BK crossaint/wich 

Saturday, July 4, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 22

Happy fuckin 4th of July! I really do want to go off my diet but my tight jeans remind me everyday how much I need to stay on it. 

- cream oatmeal cookie
- custard cream puff
- funnions chips
- cannoli 
- slice of princess cake
- pumpkin chicken curry
- fried rice 
- spicy cashew chicken
- slice of peanut butter sandwich

Friday, July 3, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 21

I started this morning off with a donut. I wanted to eat yogurt but went for the sugar instead.

- donut
- half of a sandwich
- cup of chili w/ cheese & onions
- 3 fruit punch drinks
- chipotle burrito
- chips & guac

Thursday, July 2, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 20

Today started off alright.  I got my yogurt but probably could've did without the donut.

- bobs donut
- 2 yogurts
- 2 cookies (subway)
- yellow chicken curry w/ rice 
- share tea 

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

90 Day Diet - Day 19

Well today I'm sort back on track, I had to finish off the rest of the cupcakes but .... today I made a killer home made salad with my own condiments, the only thing I was missing, boiled eggs.

- 6 cupcakes
- big salad, romaine & iceberg lettuce, red onions, cherry tomatoes, Texas toast croutons, chopped turkey lunch meat & lots of Ranch.
- 4 small animal cookie bags
- zinger twinkies 
- hot dog
- Reese's cups
- mini beef ques 
- meximelt
- spicy tostadas